hey.i want to get something off my chest.so here i go.ranting here and there hoping that i would actually figure out what im feeling about you,about me,about us about everybody and about the world.admitting to oneself that shes weak is absolutely hard.but im willing to be humble.i know im afraid of feelings.ive hurt and heal,been hurt and healed.but nothing can match the magnitude of hurt that is brought upon by people whom im fond of and people whom ive given due respect.i know theres an in evitable equator separating the both of us and i know not to cross the boundary but to walk on the line instead.
you have a thousand more experiences more than i do.due to your earlier existence of say,6 years or so, on earth.nevertheless,my respect for you have been comparable to what ive given to my peers.but im here to let you know,ive been disappointed.im disappointed by your lack of maturity,to question feelings that were not even there. to question my sincerity, to question my friendship towards you.the absurdity of the whole situation has lead me to believe that maybe i should stop being friendly to anyone else i dont really know.to joke with anyone else who appears to know how to joke.because you did not trust me.you did not trust my feelings either.lets put it simple, you have no respect for me.ive dealt with reality harder than this,if theres anything harder than this,it is when people dont give me the same respect.so from today on,we are better off as acquaintances.nothing more or less.not that there was ever anything more.because thats never gonna happen.in a million years maybe.but im convinced that its never.
as for you.you sure enjoy hide and seek dont you?well i grew out of it.i sincerely hope you do too.because you are like a fungus,so green and irritating.you make urself appear like a parasite.i dunt noe why,but now i haf a mutual detestation towards you.you were like a sister to me.i guess you turned the tables and make it completely axiomatic that the world revolves around you and her but giving not only me,but the rest, a game of minesweeper.im tired of uncovering your mines.i completely respect the need for privacy but you lie to get it.you lied.face it.you lied babe.so you want your privacy.ok.i'll give it to you.too easy?heres the catch.i'll completely isolate you from my world now. dramaqueen.like i always say.lie to me,and you die i tell you.DIE.shall not waste anymore lines on you.
BITCH.you trashed me at pool.dunt think highly of yourself.slap your face.im boring eh?slap your face.im not.ok.going out with wanyun is fun,because she has amazing stamina and amazing way of convincing you and acting pissed.i was like late laa.so she called in that pissed off voice which made me,ran in 11/2 inch heels for the bus in order to make it in 25 minutes.actually there was an earlier part of the story.ehemp.i was in the shower and she called.meet me in town in an hr?expected bt i had to go grocery shopping so i rushed to the supermarket.like rush RUSH.and ges wat? forgot to bring cash.ooh.nice.so met wanyun at kembangan in 15 mins.hah! so on the way to town,we saw this ugly guy.like so fugly.and wy turned to me and sayd,hes ugly laa.hahaha.wtv.just because youre a hott loser.doesnt mean everyones ugly.but ok laa,dat guy IS ugly.hahaha.you know im not good at directions because im so used to being chauffeured around and plus im quite simple minded.haha.so we exited wrongly like twice.den we like walk2,and wanyun wanted ice cream.so i figured,nvm laa,since im late and everything.haha.so i had one too.haha.so shiokk.walk and called rongzhen where to play pool.lucky plaza.had to walk super long.and im wearing heels.god.torture.on the way saw ethan lim hu played drums.so young.den called rongzhen again.its at level six.so we had to take escalators.yay.
oh yes.wanyun is a wainpot.she loves reflective surfaces.i think dey scream im hott at her everytime.hahaha.loser.so played pool.for an hour,and she trashed me. the black ball there hates me.sobs.nvm,it wont be the same next time.and i haf pride k.i wont play alone like you did wanyun!loser.its like i hit alot at first,wanyun blocks holes. an she catch up then the black ball is hers.damnn.nvm.im gonna trash her the next time round man.dont worry.i'll get my pride back.hahaha.went crumpler too.to check out the price. the same laa.so wanyun not heart pain.haha.i wanted to go to guess,but wanyun said the policy is,you accompany me,you follow where i go,not i follow where u go.bitch.haha.then we went toys r us, and she wanted that toy vending machine whic hwas like 1 dollar.haha.so she turned.and got a tiny miny sally.the one from nitemare b4 christmas.haha.then daddy called.had to leave.wy cuden find her next victim so she had to go home with me.HAHA.besides,i know i wont make it to the mrt without getting lost.hahaha.so met jnrs.missed em.wy got bored and left me to talk to em.she said today was a waste of time.played pool and it was boring.BITCH.haha.so irritating. i felt so bad abt getting trashed.bitch laa dat wanyun.but i still love wanyun.sighh.the vainest bratz girl.so pretty=).
mellys coming over soon.yay!carn wait.haha.i bought ice cream.pink ice cream summore.haha.shes sick laa.poor darling.haha.elehh.she giving my ic which i left. haha.yays.i love melly.and i carn wait for jenna to come back.jane my pussycatdollz,i missed you bitch.carn wait to haf you back!haha.dont cha? hahaha.
probably going to see fireworks during new years eve with wainpotwy,melly,sissy.yay yay.ok i shud be going now. and simone darling,you grew up! haha. eyy. i love you laa.i'll probably stixwitu till we are like prunes?eww.haha.ouch my legs hurt.its the heels man. i swear but i never had this problem.heels are sexayy.haha.ok dats random. bubbye.loves.
ps:i love alex polstra.
pps:someone please get me a bratz diary.anyone?hehe.